SaeYuki – Regret (3.2/3)

I’m really the worst here. LOL.
I still can’t end the story in this chapter. However, I think it’s better going on like this rather that a rushed ending fic. Right?
I’m sure that the next one will be the last. Really…. the last.


PART 3.2


Sae is still have an extremely annoying behavior like always, especially towards Yuki. Yuki is also still want to whack Sae’s head every time she sees Sae’s face. Everything looks same, except… in these past 2 months (after Sae’s final project is done), somehow, Yuki and Sae managed to become closer than before. For some reasons, both of them are already accustomed with each other’s presence.

“Hey, Yuki ‘The Hot Bitch’. Let’s grab some drinks after our classes over.” Sae sit on the table beside Yuki’s chair right after the professor walk out of their class.

Yuki rolls her eyes. “No time for that, Miyazawa-san. I still have to do my homework tonight. Just go with one of your harem or maybe with all of them.” She didn’t even need to turn her head because she was already knew that it was Sae’s voice. She is still focusing her eyes on her laptop. She doesn’t want anyone come and disturb her in studying.

Sae let out a sigh. “Why do you even need to study so diligently? You know that you’ll never be able to beat my grades.” Suddenly, she remembered something. “Wait. Don’t tell me that you’re really want to beat me because of our silly bet 2 months ago. That was a joke, you know?”

Yuki stop. “It’s not because of that.” She turns her head at Sae.

“Then why?”

It’s because I don’t want to go too often with you and I have to keep myself busy so I don’t have to think about you every minute. Yuki obviously couldn’t said it directly to Sae, so she just turned her eyes back to her laptop. “I have a dream to work as designer in Paris, so… it’s so obvious that I should have enough qualification for that.”

Sae stand up. “Bullshit.” After that, Sae’s hand reach Yuki’s laptop and close it by force.

“Hey!!!” Yuki look so irritated.

Sae ignoring Yuki’s irritated face because she’s already used to it, and then she take the laptop into her grip. “Come on.” She walks away while bringing the laptop and leave Yuki’s behind.

I hate her. Yuki quickly grab her handbag and the she runs toward Sae. “Give my laptop back!” She tries to reach her laptop.

Sae swiftly moving the laptop into her other hand, so Yuki can’t reach it. “Oh come on. Every girls in this college are dying just to walk together with me. You should be feel honored.” She laughs.

Yuki groans. “Urgh! I’m not one of those stupid girls. Why don’t you just ask Matsui-san to drink with you?!”

Sae stop after she hears Yuki’s word. “Jurina?” She frowned. “Why did you suddenly involve her?”

Crap. Yuki doesn’t know why she suddenly said Jurina’s name like that. She didn’t even realized it when the name came out from her lips. She feels even more stupid when she sees Sae smirk at her.

“Are you jealous at her?” Sae look at Yuki while showing her mischievous smile. “Interesting.”

“Quit dreaming, Miyazawa.” Yuki rolled her eyes while saying it. “Don’t you realize how narcissist you are?!” She tried her best to make it sounded normally even though her heart was almost explode because of the nervousness.

Sae laugh again. “Oh man. Just kidding.” After that, she takes her phone from her bag. “But it’s a nice idea actually. We can invite Jurina as well.” She’s looking for Jurina’s number on her contact and then she presses the dial button. “I bet she’s only lazying around right now.” She said it as she remembered that Jurina was already graduated from the modelling school 2 months ago. “Hello, J.” She said it after Jurina picked up her call.

Yuki gluing her eyes on Sae, who is still on the phone with Jurina, while showing her straight face. I think I’ve just digging my own grave.

*2 Hours Later*

Yuki, Sae, and Jurina walk into the club as if there is a slow motion camera there. The moment they entered the club, almost all pair of eyes glued on them. Jaw drops everywhere.

Jurina and Yuki are wearing sexy black dresses while walking like supermodels. The heavy smokey eyes make-up are also make them looks more stunning. On the other side, Sae is wearing a cool white suit with light blue tie attached on her. She walks with one of her hands inside her pants pocket and she uses the other hand to wear the black glasses.

Jurina shaping a slight smile on her lips as she is perfectly aware that 3 of them are gaining everyone’s attention. She nudge Yuki’s hand while walking and then she whispers at Yuki’s ear. “Hey, it was actually a nice decision for us to drop at Sae’s place and borrowing her own designed dress before going here.

Yuki put her palm on her lips to cover her chuckle. “You’re right, although we were making a total mess in her place while searching these dresses.” She whispered back at Jurina.

“Return my dresses as soon as possible after you wash it. Don’t even dare to leave any permanent damage on the dresses.” Sae roll her eyes. She is remembering how happy Jurina and Yuki after she gave them permission to wear any dresses that they liked. The memory of Yuki and Jurina laughing and smiling in excitement as they were trying almost all of her dresses collection are also popping up in her mind. Such a kid.

“Stingy as always.” Jurina stick out her tongue at Sae.

While letting Jurina and Sae doing their cat-fights, Yuki looking around as she’s trying to find an empty table. “There!” She pointed her finger at the empty chairs in front of the bartenders.

Sae and Jurina stop their ‘fight’ and following Yuki from behind. After they sit on the chair, they order some drinks while enjoying the loud music inside the club.

After 20 minutes of sitting and drinking only, Sae feel that her adrenaline begin to pump up and her body begin to sway along the music beats. “Hey! Wanna go to the dance floor?”

Yuki frown and then she turns her head at Sae. “What?” She couldn’t hear anything except the loud music inside the club.

Sae approach Yuki’s ear. “Wanna go to the dance floor?” She raised her voice so Yuki could hear it. “Dance with us!” She pointed at herself and Jurina.

Yuki shake her head. “Umm. No. I don’t dance.”

“Okay.” Sae take her glass and then she gulps the vodka that left in the glass in one go. She feels a bit dizzy and her body feels hot as well, but it excite her. “Come on, Jurina. It’s been a while.” She grabs Jurina’s hand after put the glass back onto the table.

Jurina smile and then she stands up. She looks excited because it’s been a long time since she and Sae ‘hit the floor’ together. “Challenge accepted.” She let Sae pull her hand and bring her toward the dance floor. “Join us anytime if you feel bored, Kashiwagi-san!!!” She said it to Yuki before Sae pull her further from their table.

Yuki give a slight nod to Jurina. She looks indifferent at first, but then she can’t hold back her urge to watch Sae and Jurina. She keeps gluing her eyes on Sae and Jurina while drinking her vodka little by a little.

At first, Jurina and Sae dance powerfully as the music beats ‘tell’ their body to do so. Both Jurina and Sae look like the expert dancers and it makes, once again, both of them gaining a lot of attention. Yuki is also praising them inside her mind. Wow, so cool. No wonder they’re become best friend, somehow, they have a same vibe.

After 3 songs played, the DJ start to change the music type. This time, the music is still have a good beats but also sounds sexier. Jurina start to dance a bit sexier toward Sae, who is also making a kind of seducing expression. Both of them dancing intensely without letting go their eyes toward each other.

The hot atmosphere between Jurina and Sae increasing as Jurina raising her arms while dancing and Sae quickly put her hands on Jurina’s hips. Both of them are dancing so close to each other. Finally, Jurina put her arms around Sae’s neck and their body locked to each other. Their bodies swaying in the same beats with their faces are almost touching.

Yuki close her eyes for a moment to calm the rage inside her heart. Oh God, my heart is going to explode here. After taking deep breaths several times, she opens her eyes again, hoping the rage is gone. She’s wrong. Looking at Sae and Jurina dance intimately like that make her mind is going to explode anytime.

Yuki ask bartender to give her 3 more shots of a kind of strong alcohol beverage and then she drinks them in a shot. I HATE THIS FEELINGS!!! Then she stands up and walk straight toward the dance floor. She pushes everyone who is about to bump onto her body at the dance floor. Finally, Yuki is already stood right in front of Sae and then she gives a death glare at Sae.

When Sae realizing Yuki’s presence, her body stop. “What are you doing?” She frowned as she confused about Yuki’s sudden strange behavior.

Jurina letting go of Sae’s body and then she turned back. “Oh, Kashiwagi-san?” She move a bit from Sae’s side because she feels the strange atmosphere around them as well.

Without a single warning, Yuki steps forward and grabs Sae’s necktie. It makes Sae forced to bend down a little. “Dance-with-ME.” She whispered it at Sae’s ear.

Sae flinched a little as she heard an angry tone at Yuki’s voice. She looks at Jurina, asking for a help, but she only receives a big grin from Jurina.

Go for it and good luck.” Jurina say it to Sae without letting out her voice. After that, she walks away from the dance floor while smiling. What kind of womanizer who doesn’t even realize that there is a jealous girl in front of her? She chuckles.

Sae take a moment to think about what is happening there. Ah! She gasps as she realizes something. She looks at the pair of eyes who is still looking at her angrily. She’s jealous. And if she’s jealous at me, it means… she loves me! 

Sae was never considering that there is a love between her and Yuki before. She only felt happy when Yuki was around her. She was even happy when Yuki scolded her. Even Yuki’s irritating face was cute for her. For some reason, everything that Yuki did were always lovely in her eyes. She’s just realize it at that… after she met Yuki, no other girls took her interest anymore. The moment she saw Yuki for the first time, without she realized it before… Yuki was already imprinted in her heart as the most beautiful girl for her. I love her as well.

Sae hold the delicate hand that grabbing her necktie and put it around her neck. She is also putting Yuki’s other hand gently around her neck. After that, she’s placing both of her hands around Yuki’s waist. She approaches Yuki’s ear. “I’d love to dance with you.” She whispered back at Yuki.

They begin to dance together with their bodies glued onto each other. Both of them dance crazily without caring about other people who amaze at them because of their amazing look. With their stunning look, Sae and Yuki put everyone there below their levels. They’re surely in goddess level.

Yuki doesn’t even remember who initiate it first, but their lips are already intertwined together. Her body feel hot as soon as her lips touching Sae’s lips, and it makes her want to kiss Sae more passionate than before. Maybe it’s because she’s under alcohol influence but she doesn’t even care a bit. On that night, her mind goes blank and doesn’t think of anything else… including Mayu.

On the next day… Yuki wake up on Sae’s bed.

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It only need 2 days for everyone in their college to know about their relationship since it’s so obvious. For 2 days in a row, Yuki and Sae attend their morning class together and of course they walk home together as well. No more strict atmosphere between them, no more fight and yelling, only smiles and laughs that appear on both faces. The way both of them looking at each other lovely make everything become so convincing.

Usually girls will go mad if their harem dating someone else, but it doesn’t happen. No one seems mad at Yuki since they know that Yuki is far beyond their level, so they really can’t do anything. If it’s someone else, maybe they will keep trying to take Sae away. But since it’s Yuki, no one have an enough confidence to do that.

Yuki doesn’t fully realized what is she doing with Sae until a week later, a girl come at her and say, “Kashiwagi-san, congratulation for your relationship with Sae-chan. Both of you looks good together.” She smiles and then she walks away, leaving Yuki dumbfounded on her chair.

Wait… Suddenly, Yuki’s can feel her palm and her foot gradually become colder and even colder. I-I’m… two-timing Mayu. Her hands shaken as she massaging her forehead in full of frustration. Maybe because of her happiness to become together with Sae make her mind blind for days and make her forget about the consequence that she has to face near in the future. S-Sae is also doesn’t know about my relationship with Mayu. Her sight go blurry because she has too much fears in her mind. WHAT HAVE I DONE?!

Yuki quickly grab her bag and then she walks away from her class. There is no way she can concentrate in her study with her messy head like that. She walks fast toward the main gate and stop the taxi, she doesn’t bring her car since Sae always pick her up at her apartment every single day.

As soon as she arrives at her apartment, she throws her bag onto the desk and lying her body onto her bed. What should I do? That question keep coming onto her mind over and over again.

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Without she realizes it, it’s been 3 days since she lock herself inside her apartment. She doesn’t even bother to pick up calls from anyone, neither Mayu or Sae.


Yuki flinched as she heard the door bell ringing. It must be Sae. She easily guess it since only Sae, Mayu, and her parents know her place. She covers her face with the pillow. She doesn’t intended to open the door at all. I’m sorry. I don’t know what to do.

In those 3 days, Yuki push her brain to solve this problem. But even with her smart brain, she still doesn’t able to find the answer. There is only one solution that she has on her mind: break up with one them before any of them realize that I’m two-timing them. Then the problem is… she’s not ready to lose one of them. Mayu, the one who always stand by her side for the longest time even in her darkest time. Sae, the girl who left a strong impression inside her heart and her love for Sae is strangely escalated quickly only in a couple months.

Yuki let out a sigh of relief after she hears no more bell ringing. In a moment later, she’s receiving a message from Sae.

From: Sae-chan

Where are you?
Is something happened to you? Don’t leave me like this.Please answer my calls or at least reply my messages.
I miss you and I’m so worried about you.
I come to your place everyday but it seems you’re not at home.

Please share your problem with me, I’ll help you with all my strength.

I love you.

The tears rolled down on Yuki’s cheeks as she read the message from Sae. I’m the worst.

*On The Next Day*

Yuki still not having a courage to meet Sae even though Sae have not yet to know what exactly is going on. But after she thinks about it again, she still has to go to her college. She can’t keep skipping the classes like that. But how can I avoid Sae when everyone perfectly know both of us?! Having a pretty face have the advantages in many ways, but it become a curse when something bad come up like this time.

In the middle of her own struggle, her phone is ringing. She look at the screen but it’s an unknown number. She wants to ignore it but… How if it’s one of my professor’s number? Anything is possible when you skip your classes for almost a week, especially when you’re usually a diligent student. She decides to take the call.



Yuki shock to the death as the voice that perfectly familiar to her ears raising her voice as soon as she picks up the call. “M-Mayu… I-”


“Look, Mayu. I’m sorry. Let me expl-”


Yuki immediately regretting her decision in answering the call. Oh crap. Here we go… another problem comes. “Look, I-”

“You’re the worst, Yuki!!!” Mayu keep raising her voice.

Yuki clench her teeth. “Let me finish my words, Watanabe Mayu!!!!” This time is Yuki’s turn to raise the voice.

“…” There is no answer from Mayu.

Deep down in Yuki’s heart, she knows that it’s not her position to get angry. She’s obviously deserved Mayu’s anger after what happened in the last couple of months. But her brain couldn’t let it happen. Somehow, her regret and her fear of Mayu would know what she had doing with Sae transform into an anger feeling. The way Mayu cornered her made her even more frustrated. “I’m busy, Mayu.” Here the lies begin. “I’m busy and frustrated with my study here, yet you only care about our damn anniversary?!” Lies over the lies. “You’re the one who was not stopping my parents for making me study here, far away from you, yet you’re the one who angry at me for not taking your calls only for some fucking several days?!”

“….” Mayu is still silent after all things that Yuki said at her.

“You’re the first one who was digging up our holes like this!!!” Yuki’s mind is already blank since the moment she answered Mayu’s call. Everything that she said was only flowing like that without she realized it. “But look at you now… angry at me for a silly reason.” Yuki trying to get her sanity back. Stop it Yuki!!! Stop it!!! It’s all lie. You can’t keep hurting Mayu like this! But it seems her lips and her brain doesn’t want to hear what her heart say. “If you can’t handle this long distance relationship, then why don’t we just break up?”

WHAT?!” Mayu sounded surprised because of this nonsense argument.

What?! Yuki is surprised by her own words as well. “I-”

Before Yuki even say another word, Mayu cut her off. “You know Yuki… do what you want to do, but I hope you can get your sanity back again.” This time, Mayu doesn’t even need to raise her voice to show how irritated she is. “And you forget one more thing, Yuki. Yesterday was my birthday.” Mayu let out a sigh. “Bye.” Mayu ended the call.

Yuki slamming her phone hardly onto the ground. Can anything get any worse than this?! I’m so stupid.

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“Yuki! Oh my God!”

Yuki can feel a pair of hands hug her from behind as soon as she comes out of her car. “Hi, Sae.” She forces her lips to give Sae’s a slight smile.

“Are you okay?” It seems Sae still not wanting to let go of her hands from Yuki’s body. She puts her chin onto Yuki’s shoulder. “I miss you.”

Yuki turn around and facing Sae. “Thank you for worrying me and keep texting me even though I’m not replying any of your message.”

Sae show a bright smile at Yuki. “Nah. It’s okay. At least you look fine… because I thought you were involved in an accident or something.” She let go of the hug and then she reaches one of Yuki’s hand and hold it gently. “Come on. Let’s go to our class. We’re almost late.”

Yuki frown. “Are you not going to bombard me with any question?”

Sae shake her head with her smile still on her face. “No.”

“Are you not curious at all?” Yuki can’t believe Sae is letting it go just like that.

“I’m curious, of course. But if it’s something that you’re not ready yet to tell me, then… there’s no point to ask you.” Sae ruffled Yuki’s hair. “I can wait.”

When she hears those warm words from Sae, she finally can smile sincerely. “Thank you.” She’s glad that Sae’s act in facing a problem is actually matured than she thought. Maybe because she’s older than me? She can’t help herself to not comparing Sae with Mayu. Well… if it’s Mayu, maybe she is already dragged me to the corner and interrogating me until she knows exactly the details of it.

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Day by day passed without any major problem happened. Yuki decided to keep her darkest secret locked deep inside her heart. Thanks to Sae’s maturity for not digging any of it. She’s so comfortable around Sae and that’s make her fall for Sae even more.

When Yuki’s with Mayu, Yuki is the one who take more effort in their relationship since she’s older than Mayu. On the other hand, when she’s with Sae, she can be more relax since she knows that Sae is going to take care of her.

Even though she’s already comfortable enough with Sae, it doesn’t make her forget Mayu just like that. She’s still in love with Mayu. She and Mayu is already knew each other for 6 years, it’s including the last 4 years she spent with Mayu as her girlfriend. It’s been 2 weeks since the last nonsense argument happened. She wants to say sorry but she doesn’t know how to start it. If only Mayu is around me, maybe I can solve our problem easier. But what can I do? The distance between Paris and Japan is no joke. Even if I call her, we will end up fighting on the phone again.

On the usual day, either God bless her or curse her, Mayu appear out of no-where as if God hear her prays but grant it in a kind of wrong time.

“You looks happier than I thought.”

Yuki feel like there are dozens of needles piercing her body on the same time when she sees Mayu standing right in front of her… and Sae. “M-mayu. H-how? W-why?” She can feels a sudden cold sweats appear on her palms.

Mayu took a sharp glance at Sae before looking back at Yuki. “And you looks not busy AT ALL.”

Yuki look at Sae for a moment and then she look at Mayu again. “Umm…. I-”

“You know… it’s a bit hard to find you.” Mayu looks totally relax, but her words sounds so sharp and clear. “I asked some students here ‘Do you know Kashiwagi Yuki’s class?‘, and strangely their answer were all same ‘Oh! Sae-chan’s girlfriend. Both of them are in the same class at the second floor of A building‘. So I just went and waited here, in the main gate, in case you’re passed through here by accident since I was doubting that their Kashiwagi was same as the Kashiwagi that I mean.”

“You can just call me.”

Mayu smile. “Don’t you forget what happened last time when I call you?”

Yuki can’t say anything. She doesn’t know how to start the conversation, especially when 3 of them gathering in the same place like that. The thick atmosphere last for about 5 minutes.

Sae look at Yuki and Mayu alternately. “I think I’ll go first.” She walks away without looking back.

Mayu is observing Sae’s back as she following Sae with her eyes. “She’s definitely a girl, Yuki.”

Yuki bit her below lip while staring at the ground. She doesn’t even have a courage to look at Mayu’s eyes.

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